“Open mind” Working on What if and what else is possible. The creation of the neutral zone, fear as the worst case scenario. Fact, the reality within our perceptions is in the data. Taking out the stereo type, personal information and time line when you may believe you are looking at the numbers that the machine was built on. You look at the sum, but the machine has not calculated fear. What is the sum of fear? Is it the neutral that does not exist or a multi-function depending on the perception and application? Does it engage all of your senses and is this the interaction of all things? Still in motion as are all things we perceive to exist.

Watching and internalizing the sights and sounds of the inauguration on TV for future data. I had updated myself earlier of any changes sent today from the web sites I so frequently visit and interact with. Today as I logged out of the internet and shut down my computer there was an afterthought. Is today the day that I get back on my computer, take the lessons of my interaction and post or publish a piece of what I had written in my micro soft word on medium. Will I hit the send button knowing there is a trail of the blogs post and publishing’s of mine or our words? From the disability web site I or we added “Invisible no more” and “It is not your fault” as healing tools. There were no hesitations to hit send. I have no belief that my words or thoughts are my own but a shared intellect, interaction. I or we, have trouble with I and all or nothing statements. This causes conflict with communicating with spoken or written word. Still we attempt it to reach distances and interact far beyond our immediate surroundings.

Now as I recently lost my mother from illness, she my last surviving parent, I had to deal with facts. My mind in flashes goes over my interactions and emotional memory, as I once again held death in my arms. The physical body there dead, a tear in the corner of each of my mother’s closed eyes will fade, as the smell and other senses have passed now. I am left with memory of no judgement only respect for the strength of her life and those of all before us, with gratitude. Recently she has passed to me wisdom, sanity and understanding. Even as she had told me, many of my words were crazy talk. They were words of truth that could not be expressed by her in most of her life time. From her and my elders I had asked for a window, from the time I was born to now to try to know myself, my family and better relate to everything, everyone and everywhere in my life. I was given a door instead and told to go through it. The door is fear built of and by survivors. Need to know more and interact? Be patient and look for “Open Mind”.

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